I am crying while writing this because I am sad for US.....I don't want to lose him. I selfishly wanted him to hang on and meet our son in the coming weeks and get pictures to have forever. He has seven children, 14 grandchildren, 15 great grandchildren and 2 great grandchildren on the way. One of which will be here tomorrow. He has quite a legacy and I know that the highest honor I could serve him would be to have a child. But I don't want to share in these strange mixture of emotions. I want to feel the happiness for ourselves and when the time is right, I want to grieve for my Granddaddy. But it feels like I might have to share those two spectrums. We'll see.
Now, it is 6:25pm and we have just returned from our Pre-Op appointment at the hospital. Literally, as I was checking in for the appointment at 2:50pm, my dad called to tell me that Granddaddy passed away about fifteen minutes before that. I was kind of a mess in the doctors office/hospital and my nurse decided not to take my blood pressure. She just checked the baby's heart beat and said it sounded great! SO, as I expected, Granddaddy went peacefully and without pain. I know some of his kids were with him. I know that he is in a much better place and is finally reunited with Grandma. I also realize that this was the only way he'd be able to see and share in the joy we will experience tomorrow. He'll be looking down and quite proud of what he helped create many years ago. God works in strange and amazing ways and it is as though he was making room for another equally amazing human to walk the earth. My dad and his siblings seem to be doing okay. I hope I can be there for any type of memorial/funeral that we have, but of course I will do what I can with the situation as it is.
Anyways, although my heart is heavy, David and I will have the experience of a lifetime tomorrow and I have to be prepared for that. Granddaddy was an extremely brilliant, hard working, caring man who lived a long and full life. I am proud to be his granddaughter and am proud to be adding to his family tomorrow. Below are a collection of pictures that I have on my computer and a great way for me to remember how awesome my Granddaddy will always be.
|Granddaddy and his oldest son, Jimmy, who played for ECU and eventually for the Dodgers|
|At my wedding|
|They are so much alike|
|One of his favorite ways to pass the time|
|Me and Granddaddy walking down for Matt's wedding|
|Dad & Granddaddy at Matt's wedding|
|One prepared man....watching Cody play baseball at UNCW|
|At a UNCW baseball game watching Cody|
|He LOVED some babies!|
|Grandaddy and his kids|
|Granddaddy and all his boys|
|Getting ready to blow out candles on his Snoopy birthday cake....his last dog was named Snoopy|
|Granddaddy and his sister and her husband at his bday party|
|Granddaddy's 90th birthday party in May 2011|
|Thanksgiving 2011.....he was in the hospital but made it to Ann's for lunch|
|This was Christmas this year....the last time I saw him. He looked great!|